I Need You

i need you.
i need you.
i fucking need you okay.
it scares me.
i'm scared.
i'm scared.
i'm scared of. me. I fucking scared of me.
i am a fucking idiot. A damn fool.
you are asleep now and your sure, steady breathing is the only thing that makes me feel
safe, comforted.
Don't ever go away, okay? You can't.
I am fearful of how much I need you.
Iaam afraid of my fear. I've never been this scared
I've never loved this deeply.
You are the whole universe; you have my world . You've hidden it away for
safekeeping, but I can still feel your pulse there.
You have me, okay?
I can hear your heart skipping and running to catch up to mine; I can hear it needing to be
with mine.
so.
Why am I scared? Fuck, I really don't understand anything ever.
I felt this way once before. The way your heart races when someone drops an ice cube
down your back; that instant shock, fear, and absolute thrill.
Do you know that the last time my heart raced like this I fell in love with you?
I told you I thought I was getting sick, you knew better.
Please know this time.
Please take my hand, place your fingers in between mine and take away this crippling
fear. Now, now, please now.